M.I.T. Edition 1

Me In Taylor's (MIT)Edition 1
Taylor's have gave me many opportunities. Opportunities that i never thought possible, and they came knocking twice so far...

One, was my future career.. never thought that Taylor's would give me a chance to join their in FHM 09 as part of their team.. and actually won something out of it... Though i wasn't really proud of the achievement as my part in the team was rather like a team player, and I didnt contribute much in the menu... but nonetheless, my resume is by far better..

Apart from this, Taylor's lecturers guided me futher to be the best student in my culinary arts batch. Here, I would like to Thank them. Their guidance was precious to me. I am 31yrs old. I may not need motivation, but i still need guidance...

The second opportunities that Taylor's gave me was a girl that i Loved actually exist, but i failed due to my mistakes and wrong choice of actions.. NO comment to that...

The Special Edition to M.I.T. are my friends. When you are working out there, you will never know when a smile with smut, or a smile with daggers.. But here in Taylor's at least in my group 1 and 2 was, by far, shown the best team efforts i have ever seen in my entire life and they are friends you can laugh with, friends you can hang out with, friends who can keep secrets, and friends who can be trusted...

For some reasons, when i see no purpose to join the degree program, i actually feel, kind of sad... i will miss all of them... sometimes, you just cant let go of the bonds that was built on FAQ (Friendly Assured Qualities)!! At least they don't fake too much... I hate "Mask" Riders!!

So, this year 2010, I chose to further my studies for the sole purpose to get my entire family (including my future spouse's) out of Malaysia. No, its not like I hate Msia, its just there are better opportunites out there than in Msia.. So should I say I love Taylor's ... yar... i kinda like it... but i still don't love it!

Know Your Partner

I had dated only one girl that I love in my entire life.. The rest, well, is an act of "freewill". Hey, they say if you never try, you would never know. So I did as the saying. Never once it work, the rest complain that I love going to an island of my own...

Perhaps its my fault.. i care less of their feelings, their reasons, their emotions. Knowing this, I did nothing when i'm with them. I show no affection towards the relationship, no effort to build the foundations. I am such a mean SHIT! But did i ever tried to court girls?? Yes. But never succeed, if they don't like me. Those who like me is a 90% success. There was one that gave me a reason that I will never forget. As she was crying, she said she find me so perfect, but because she is not (she was refering to something very personal) hence, she couldnt be with me...? Say what? What would I care about that? Look, past is past. History teaches not bleaches.

So what about the girl that I would fall for? I usually study them before i do any initial move. There must have some criteria before I would give a GO sign. I fell for a girl in Taylor's College for two years now... but i only have the guts to tell her after she left! (Yeah, I am a pathetic looser. Well, something happen in between, but i can't take that as an excuse... I made terrible choices..

What do i think about her? She asked me this question in my car the night before i last saw her, I didnt answer her at that time. I pretended, i don't care and i gave a "chin chai" answer. Then, why am i saying it now? I really don't know. I don't expect anything from this either. Well, she is cheerful, emotional, loving, lovely, short, really fatty nose(cute), fair, beautiful, incredible lovely smile, sweet lips, responsible, respect the elders, love the children, independent, family orientated, friendly, annoying, extremely mesmerizing eyes, love to disturb friends of same sex, perfect chin curve, playful, nature lover, sympathetic, peaceful, planner, natural mother, and love to travel and see the world with her own eyes. (she got almost all the qualities I like of a girl)

She is so perfect! Unfortunately, some qualities here are difficult especially the Planner. She would sacrifce anything for a plan to succeed (as long as it is not against the law or her dignity) for this reason, she will always fall into the victim of LOVE PARADOX. Her love and sacrifice fall under the same category call sacrifice love.

To be honest, I foresee that she will build a career for herself. There is no denying that. She don't need help and she wouldn't accept it (as long as there are choices). At age 21 this year, a bright future is awaiting her...

Where do i stand her Love Circle? well, i am outside the ring. K.O. in just 1 min. But the battle will always be there. World Championship title is not once in a life time.. As a friend, I will support her as much as i can and with all my heart. I would be her shoulder to cry on, and her "lifecorder"... if she ever needed it, and that is my lifetime promise.

COMPLAINS

Food and Hotel Competition..

Ohh... god dammmit... I still cant think of a good menu for my coming competition... SEAFOOD and SHELLFISH, Professional category.... with the strees load i have now.. nothing is possible. I dun find anything nice rite now... getting thinner... my pants are loosing up... I really need to see a doctor... I am half dead already...

Well, if i were to compare to the rest of the world.. i think i am better off... people like to complain... and they complain about anything that they dont like... so, you wanna tell the world how sad and bad your situation is, i suggest you Look at the people at Haiti now, then tell me who got problem...

Get things done.. i think the time you spend thinking to solve the matter at hand has much worth than whinning and complaining... get on your feet and move further than you are now... If where you are standing has nothing... then take a step further... and you might find something.,....

So James... Move FURTHER... MOVE IT!! MOVE IT!! MOVE IT!!

Too Tight, Too Loose

Strings That Are Tight AND Loose

To be honest, how many of us can actually belief that you have found your soulmate? That you would say to him or her that "I LOVE YOU" full heartly?

Some girl would say that SHE would change for a guy, that SHE would love him forever.. that SHE would do anything for him... that SHE would let go everything for him...ceterai ceterai ceterai (from the King and I)

Some guy would say tht HE said that HE would Love her only, that He would sacrifice anything for her, and He would take care of her and make her happy... blah blah blah

Economic Lesson 101:
What if both failed..?
Case Study 1:
Assuming girl or guy meets a new partner...
Can SHE actually forget her ONE? to be with a new partner, and do the same with all her heart when SHE actually had shared it with someone else? From what i have experience... from time to time... i think of the girl that i have said all those to. It has been 10yrs+ and still i can't entirely forget her eventhough i was with some others... Look, be honest, both sexes are the same,.. god have an S.O.P. for humans.. You just can't forget it...

Case Study 2:
Assuming both the guy and the girl from different continent fall for each other...
I think the ultimate question would be can they be Honest to each other...? I found a girl that i truly love... she had my heart accelerated each time i see her , talk to her, or even see her name on MSN or FB... she had my heart doing irregular "execise" for nearly 2 weeks now...just because i know i would not be able to see her in the near future..., but at the same time SHE had someone else in mind... I know she would feel the same for that lucky BASTARD... But, can we be true to each other if the future pulls us together? There are so many "what if" questions that can drive a Love Guru mad.....

Well, String snaps if we pull too tight, and makes no melody if it's too loose... she and I share a same curse.. That we are both hardheaded but we learn to let go at the same time... (though i feel i know why, but i keep asking her why would she let go a guy she finds so perfect)... well, for now, I wish her good luck in her dreams..

Friends

VICKI'S FAREWELL PARTY.........

Seeing friends leaving is becoming a normal thing to me... friends come and go... some we miss, some we wish we are in their shoes instead.. some it are painful..

Well, whatever the situation would be, there are always a common thing exist. We are there to say goodbye because that particular person is a worthy friend or at least there are worthy friends around them...


This is Vicki Pun.. short, very fair, annoying voice with eletronic eyes, but a great person to be with when you need someone to talk to... We will miss you...


This is what we do most of our time at her house... chat chat chat photo photo photo... while she was busy entertaining others..


This is a photo taken from another photo... ironic.. but yeah... well, pretty much important because it was snapped by Vicki... her last shot on us for now...


There should be another guy by the name Alric.. unfortunately he got stuck in a jam that tasted sour, and return home... Huh? Quoi??



My hands are not that long... the girl standing next to me has taken up most of the length... all the way to the end was Hong Jun's..







To dearest Vicki, a friend in need is a friend indeed... well, though i have never asked you for anything (hence it's just a figure of speech), but do take care over there... keep in touch okay? Tell us more about your life there.. So until next time... godspeed and save journey!

D.O.B. it!!

Don't Over Buy IT!!
With the ever on going growth of technologies and programs... i wonder if i ever be able to keep up... btw i think i am way to old for blogging.. my bones might break!!
I was again selected for competition, God Dammit!!... This time, i have doubts...The things i am now facing are as followed..
•sleepless nights since 13th of this month 3-5 hrs a day only(the torture),
•i cant focus my studies since the begining of all classes(the tests),
•i cant make any idea what to do for my menu (the resources),
•i am under scholarship (the requirements),
•i was betrayed by my college(the usual)...

well, like in any hero base story, they fight on...so, i cant fall back now... i have to continue a journey that i have set for myself.. though realising it is going to be hard... chinese say "if u have the heart, a steel rod can be mold into a needle" wow... when i was a kid, the first thing that came into my mind was perhaps the ancient have the ability to stop time, whr they start molding it while everything stop spinning... Viola...and a needle is produced almost an instant!!

anyway... the idealogy behind it does consist of 3 elements namely hardwork, time and motivation... each contribute to form a WILL to do it... from time to time, each element will set a test for us on the WILL we have created... breaks when we don't belief, breaks if we over confidient, breaks if we are being manipulated... so how we do it? Well, maybe this will do...wat do we call a Singh with 2 balls? --Balancing... we need to balance all three elements...

Perhaps i had BOUGHT too much things from Trouble-Mart and store it into my mind.....hey! the Trouble-Mart advertise saying it was free!! so i took it without thinking and without hesitation... I wonder if i ever be able to do it this time... they say u will never know until u try! Yar... very motivating!!.... VERY encouraging!!...

Well, to all my friends going for the FHA competition, good luck!

My Love For You

I belief because those feelings are strong,

Sudden rush that stop time for instant,
Trembling feet visible from a distant,
Invading my very soul which was reluctant,
Loosing control of my limbs over the excitement,
Love that i am ready for commitment...

Laughters and joys is what i want to share you with,
Offering my heart that will never shift,
Vows i did, and i swear over it,
Even the impossible, my love for you will not shake a bit...

Yet, your heart is far away,
Over the land, you choose to stay,
Undeviating your WILL to build a dream you lay...

So I hold your palm onto my chest that day,
Heart that you felt beats until today,
If there is a chance may i say,
Realising your dream i wish you could someday,
Never stop believing as the morning Wednesday,
I will stay in a distance, i would wait at bay,
Even to the end of days, realise your dreams as you may...

And even though i am not the one in your perfect art,
No keys to unlock the songs of your heart, but
Determination i promise you is an offscale chart!! Because

I belief the feelings are getting stronger,

Wanting you, my love for you grew even, because
I have a curse similar to you that was given,
Leverage with our stubbornness is forbiden,
Loving you is what i have determined...

Wondering if it is bizzare,
A heart that you released was locked with a scar,
Infinite love, out there they are, but i choose
To be on a path, where my songs will reach my guiding STAR...

Flow of tears is part the journey,
Or we will not cherish what some say silly,
Rainbow will paint our art slowly...

Yesterday was a history that guide us today,
Our future is a mystery that reflects on what we do presently,
Undeniable, we shall present a gift to our lovestory...

To be continue..